Artsy Stuffs

Don't you ever wish you had a talent you asked for? As opposed to naturally having?
Like singers. They just have a beautiful voice to start with. Yes they may require some fine tuning but any professional would tell someone not to sing if they didn't have what they needed to start with.
What if, though, you wanted to dance? Or cook? And was able to be as great as your grandmother or, I don't know, Shakira?
Me? I wish that sometimes. I mean cooking you can learn from family and that's free. Or so I'd hope.
I can write. To an extent. I can write poems. I can write stories. I don't feel as though I'm that great. I'm told I can pour my emotions into my poems. Honestly, not even half of my emotions are in my poems. If they did, there might be cuss words and utter hatred constantly placed in them. I don't know though. Maybe if I look back on them in a few years I'll be able to see it better.
I can draw really weird, abstract stuff. I take pictures of the sky, I photoshop, make jewelry, corsages and bouttenieres. All of this, I never really count as much. It always amazes me how much people love my art. I do call it art, but I never call it all that great unless I really love it. It's just what I do.
What I want to do, something I'd love to have a talent for is dancing. I want to tango, waltz, belly dance, heck, even swing dance. I want to learn all that and more. It's hard work. It's probably a lot of money for the classes too.
Dancing is a fluid way of expression. It's sensual when with a partner. It's drop dead sexy. And that's just watching two talented dancers doing something they're good at. I couldn't even imagine what it must feel like dancing like that with someone.
I doubt I have the natural talent, but with enough training, I'm sure I could be good enough. I want to dance for a few reasons. One is that I could lose weight while doing it, but that's just a plus. I think I've come to accept my rubinesque figure. The main reason is because it's just so beautiful to watch, why not want in on it? Another is that I'd love to dance with someone so intimately. It's so romantic to me.
It's like an artform to me. I want to learn how to embrace my confidence and body like that. It takes a sense of humor to dance badly in front of people. It takes confidence to tango sexily with an audience. Of course... that's what I think, I haven't done either. So don't take my word for it haha.
I have some really artsy friends who can draw pretty much pefectly. One can do it in chalk, because that's her medium. And by "her medium", I mean that chalk is what works best for her, like what she can understand best and use to make her vision. I have a few friends who use just a pen and/or pencil, but it's just jaw droppingly amazing. Some are great with photoshop, which is also breath taking.
Me? I'm ok. My medium is pen/ink. Chalk I suck at. Paint, I suck even worse at. Wire I've found that I'm pretty good with. And hot glue. I'm like in love with hot glue. I don't know why, but I love using it. Oh and it's an "art" medium to me because I use it when I make jewelry. I layer it. It doesn't give the glassy effect that I want though.
This is just a random post with more positivity and to express my undying desire to dance. If I could dance like Shakira, I wouldn't be rubinesque anymore, but damn, that would take sooo much training haha. And who would I show my dancing talents to? My boyfriend? Ha! Yo no tengo un novio... For those who don't know Spanish, that says "I don't have a boyfriend." I don't know why I say stuff in Spanish randomly. I just like to.
I'm weird like that. ^_^